Fire Inside

There are countless films that feed this fire I have to be a writer/director. I could go into a rant that would take me a few hours and I could drop a hundred titles. But I credit Richard Donner's "Superman" with being the film that ignited the fire.

If you know me, you know my feelings about Superman. I love Superman. But it wasn't the hero that made me love film, it was the tag line on the poster. "You Will Believe A Man Can Fly." I believed. Without a doubt. Now, I want to make other people believe.

I collect posters, ticket stubs, press kits, the tear-away part of my Netflix rentals, dvds, VHS tapes and anything else I can get my hands on. I've recently started writing down, on the tear-away parts of my Netflix rentals, the movies that I saw and my rating. I keep a film guide on my living room table and tell my wife and kids to always keep it there. IMDB is a fixture on my Firefox toolbar bookmarks at home and work. And I try to learn all kinds of inane trivia about the making of movies, actors and Hollywood in general.

My friends say things that I write down in a notebook that I carry in my back pocket. I work the dialogue into my scripts. I've got all kinds of ideas.

I carry my miniDV camera everywhere I go. I've got stock footage coming outta my whazoo. I mean to use every bit of it too.

Some nights, I just stay up and write, watch a movie and research some obscure movie on the internet- all at the same time.

Am I addicted. You bet your ass I am.
But all of this is nothing if I can't do three things:
First and most importantly, share it all with my wife. She shares her passions with me and revels in my love of mine.
Two, to write and direct movies in Hollywood. No one should knows this much crap about movies and not try and make some.
And finally, to make my parents proud. They've supported me, like my wife, in this insane endeavor to become a filmmaker since I was a kid.
I am truly blessed. Now I just gotta get up off my ass and do this.

"Look, if you had one shot, or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted-One moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip?" - Eminem

Gotta get crackin'.